“Life will get better if you try”

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Hey, its been a long time since i ever blogged so yeah :)

Let's start with my holidays, starting with multiple camps like retreat where i cried so much that my tear bank dried up. Well on the last day, where we were suppose to talk to our graduating seniors who were blindfolded. So first i started off with the person who walked up to me to join ambs, then i went to the person who passed my first round of interview then i went to my closer seniors and then those in my group. Some i just cried so much and didnt say much, while they did the talking. I just felt the emotions running through me. Though i think i feel sick cause i was dehydrated, but it was a good worthy experience :)

Then came my 3 weeks of non stop camp. First with FOCAS trial. Really glad i managed to get in as a GL and able to meet a wondrous group of GL team, especially DC. Could feel the click and i made new friendships where i see it as long-lasting :) Which is hard to see, now passing secondary school and all, being different schools, friendships just break apart.
Then i had idare, where i was sick throughout cause of trial camp. What to say, ahahha so i kept having coughing fits and fever. But overall i had fun! I had a real capsizing experience too! I simply just slipped off the white water wraft boat at the rapids and i still vividly remember the experience. One moment i was on board the next i was submerge in water. All i had in mind was to grab something or else i would drown or hit a rock. My eyes was locked on something orange, which was another wraft, so i stretched my hands out to grab it. The moment i held the ropes, the lower current was pulling me in and so i was stuck under the wraft. Had to push myself up and grab the rope tighter so i would be on the surface. the moment i was up, i could see the frantic faces of those in shrekenstrein. HAHA my friends were there. they were shouting at me to hold the ropes, they were more panicky than i was, all in my mind was to not drown, and i was calm so it was cool. i kept shouting back at them that i was holding cause they were shouting at me to hold hahaha, they were scared. Then i pushed myself to the back of the wraft cause i was afraid that being infront, i might hit rocks. and while doing so, they were shouting to hold. then when i was at the back of the wraft, when the water was more calm, the uncle on board when to pull me up. I HAD A WEDGIE OMG hahah i kept shouting wedgie wedgie, and everyone was laughing. then when things calm down i just help with rowing of the wraft. Heng there wasnt a crocodile, my friends told me last idare, they had an encounter and the uncle told them to hit it away. So thats my highlight of idare camp hahaha.

For FOCAS, while many things happened, and i was glad to really have this opportunity. I may not be the best GL there is, but im really sure i tried my best though my freshies arent enthu all the time and i have to push them. I really tried my best and did all i can:) Though the end didnt seem well, it was a good experience and I'm glad my group still intact, but i hope they would really last.

Well, so there's 2 weeks of holidays left, well 'holidays'. I really do believe in doing whatever i can in my free time. I'm really glad i invested my time in the activites i did and going to do! I know my seniors do tell me to rest during holidays but really thats not what i believe in. Rest? that would be sleep. That would be enough. I prefer to be active :) yay. Anyways with these activities i gain more friendship that do have long-lasting prospecting.

Anyways, i decided to let go, I know there's no chance with the person that i liked. Not that i dont have courage or i give up easily, its just very obvious and he already made it clear without me even hinting or something. I'm just going to remain as friends with him, though it does hurts once in a while but there isnt much i could do about it. Liking him for like almost a year, and so many signs just keep saying no its not meant to be, haiz