“Life will get better if you try”

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Hey!! This post is all way long overdued. I haven't blogged in a month and half!!
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Anyway, Hi :)
This post is probably going to be long, so GET READY ;)
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So how's life?
Well life has been rather fast-paced. ZOOM! Tomorrow is already childrens' day. The next batch of sec4s had already graduated in my choir. I'm progressing into the second semester of year 1. Sometimes, I think pace of life is hard to catch up and I'm slow to react. Oh wells, I just have to continuing trying to get used to it.
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How's my holidays?
Holidays? Well, I wouldn't call it holidays. HAHA, I'm usually stuck in school this whole "holiday". Not that I dislike it or anything, in fact I'm fine and glad to be involved in school activities. But all this "busi-ness" has prevented me from desired meet-ups with friends and has kept me away from home a lot. Actually, thinking about it, if i didn't get involved with those activites, i would mostly be lazing around at home. So yes, its a good thing to get involved. Just have to measure the opportunity costs. xD So this whole holiday, I have been through 3 camps and 1 class chalet and currently preparing for my 4th camp in the second week of October. Hectic i would say, but its enjoyable and enriching.
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How's my "love" life?
Hmmm. Its complicated, yet not so complicated. In fact, sad to say, it's probably one-sided. SIAN. So this guy that I kinda like is quite charming, charismatic, knowledgeable, knows when to play and be serious, fun, cute, etc... But i would say for now I just want to get to know him better.. for now. Now and then he would disturb me a little, and so would i? But usually I'm considering when to approach him and when not, cause I don't want him to see me as desperate or know that I do like him. Why? Well that might just be awkward. And if it is awkward, then :( Yesyesyes, i should just act normal around him and be myself...
Thinking about what my senior and friend told me, be a friend worth keeping to those worth keeping, applying it in this context. Be a person worth keeping to the person worth keeping...in a sense.
WELL.."assessing" myself, i doubt i would even date myself. That's why I feel that he would never see me in the way that I see him. Maybe in the future I would confess when he graduates, so it won't be awkward whenever we see each other in the future. Well, it shows how much of a coward that I am. SIAN. but {ohwells}
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How am i?
Emotionally unstable, checked
Mentally unsound, checked <-- I'm joking, but yeah ;)
Physically like a blob, checked
Spiritually noob, yeah

Well [realised there's always "well" and "anyway" everywhere] I guess i still need to keep my temper in tone. I get pissed very easily, as usual, though i don't usually show it all the time. There are times, i usually just speak out what's on my mind just infront of the person that just pissed me off. Should keep that in better control. There are many things going on in my mind. Reflecting, planning, digressing, etcetc. bahahaha. Yes, I do reflect on what i did in the previous years, or even what i did during the day. It's like retracing your steps through memories :)

and yes i should sleep >< NIGHTS! CRUNCHIE!!!