“Life will get better if you try”

March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 April 2013

Hey, its been a long time since i ever blogged so yeah :)

Let's start with my holidays, starting with multiple camps like retreat where i cried so much that my tear bank dried up. Well on the last day, where we were suppose to talk to our graduating seniors who were blindfolded. So first i started off with the person who walked up to me to join ambs, then i went to the person who passed my first round of interview then i went to my closer seniors and then those in my group. Some i just cried so much and didnt say much, while they did the talking. I just felt the emotions running through me. Though i think i feel sick cause i was dehydrated, but it was a good worthy experience :)

Then came my 3 weeks of non stop camp. First with FOCAS trial. Really glad i managed to get in as a GL and able to meet a wondrous group of GL team, especially DC. Could feel the click and i made new friendships where i see it as long-lasting :) Which is hard to see, now passing secondary school and all, being different schools, friendships just break apart.
Then i had idare, where i was sick throughout cause of trial camp. What to say, ahahha so i kept having coughing fits and fever. But overall i had fun! I had a real capsizing experience too! I simply just slipped off the white water wraft boat at the rapids and i still vividly remember the experience. One moment i was on board the next i was submerge in water. All i had in mind was to grab something or else i would drown or hit a rock. My eyes was locked on something orange, which was another wraft, so i stretched my hands out to grab it. The moment i held the ropes, the lower current was pulling me in and so i was stuck under the wraft. Had to push myself up and grab the rope tighter so i would be on the surface. the moment i was up, i could see the frantic faces of those in shrekenstrein. HAHA my friends were there. they were shouting at me to hold the ropes, they were more panicky than i was, all in my mind was to not drown, and i was calm so it was cool. i kept shouting back at them that i was holding cause they were shouting at me to hold hahaha, they were scared. Then i pushed myself to the back of the wraft cause i was afraid that being infront, i might hit rocks. and while doing so, they were shouting to hold. then when i was at the back of the wraft, when the water was more calm, the uncle on board when to pull me up. I HAD A WEDGIE OMG hahah i kept shouting wedgie wedgie, and everyone was laughing. then when things calm down i just help with rowing of the wraft. Heng there wasnt a crocodile, my friends told me last idare, they had an encounter and the uncle told them to hit it away. So thats my highlight of idare camp hahaha.

For FOCAS, while many things happened, and i was glad to really have this opportunity. I may not be the best GL there is, but im really sure i tried my best though my freshies arent enthu all the time and i have to push them. I really tried my best and did all i can:) Though the end didnt seem well, it was a good experience and I'm glad my group still intact, but i hope they would really last.

Well, so there's 2 weeks of holidays left, well 'holidays'. I really do believe in doing whatever i can in my free time. I'm really glad i invested my time in the activites i did and going to do! I know my seniors do tell me to rest during holidays but really thats not what i believe in. Rest? that would be sleep. That would be enough. I prefer to be active :) yay. Anyways with these activities i gain more friendship that do have long-lasting prospecting.

Anyways, i decided to let go, I know there's no chance with the person that i liked. Not that i dont have courage or i give up easily, its just very obvious and he already made it clear without me even hinting or something. I'm just going to remain as friends with him, though it does hurts once in a while but there isnt much i could do about it. Liking him for like almost a year, and so many signs just keep saying no its not meant to be, haiz

Okay HEY :)
I'm going to give a quick short post! Well, common tests are in a week. YES ONE WEEK. And my first is on a saturday morning :( How awesome is that? Nonetheless, I'm sure i can do well this semester. Especially since I have been doing my work and listening to lectures as much as possible (still cant get used to lectures). Through all this I know my work well enough to pass without any studying right now. Now is to aim for distinction!! :) Hopefully at the end of this semester, I too would be able to go for TOP ceremony (at least) for an award. And really want to congratulate my sister for clinching two best performance award for two of her modules. Engineer pro i swear. Doubt she will read this, but heh :) And also congrats to my other friends who managed to get an award too!! :)

and ohya, this time last year was JYC camp, how time flies. haiz, i don't feel like i belong to anywhere. Guess its just me, since i have been jumping between these two places.

HEY YO! So Red Camp 9 has come to a close :( Fast like the wind, 3 days zoom past us. Thinking back, all those months of preparation for this 3 days were all so memorable.

Starting from PTCC Committee, when we first started out, it was awkward here and there. However we managed to work with each other well and was probably one of the best PTCC comm ever! :) Really enjoyed your companionship and warmth that we shared through those daily meetings and preparation! :)


Hey:) School has finally started!
And, guess what! I'm listening to lectures, taking down notes and doing my tutorials! Hopefully this will be my habit from now on! >:D
And first week of school has gone by, so fast.
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So i have a couple of friend who say i'm like a bro. And a close one who can't stop calling me dude every time. Not that I mind or take offence in that, but it makes me wonder. What if I was a guy. This is pretty weird, but heh. I know the way i express myself or be myself can be rather open and probably "boyish". Yes i do like playing online games like blackshot, i like to ride the longboard, I'm rather rough with my actions, etc. But to me, that doesn't spell a boy. hahaha. Well being a boy is more of biological, need I explain? By saying "acting like a boy" is more of stereotyping what boys and girls do. I mean, so what if a boy likes to play with barbie dolls or dress up. Ok, it would seem weird, but it might just show that the boy is interested in fashion. Nothing wrong with that. Girls with skateboards, are cool kay.
Anyway, whatever we do, girl or boy alike, its more of personality than gender.
That's what i think.
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Some times, I feel that I don't belong anywhere. I'm just weird that way, with my weird thinking and messed up feelings. SIGH like a nomad.



Hey!! This post is all way long overdued. I haven't blogged in a month and half!!
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Anyway, Hi :)
This post is probably going to be long, so GET READY ;)
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So how's life?
Well life has been rather fast-paced. ZOOM! Tomorrow is already childrens' day. The next batch of sec4s had already graduated in my choir. I'm progressing into the second semester of year 1. Sometimes, I think pace of life is hard to catch up and I'm slow to react. Oh wells, I just have to continuing trying to get used to it.
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How's my holidays?
Holidays? Well, I wouldn't call it holidays. HAHA, I'm usually stuck in school this whole "holiday". Not that I dislike it or anything, in fact I'm fine and glad to be involved in school activities. But all this "busi-ness" has prevented me from desired meet-ups with friends and has kept me away from home a lot. Actually, thinking about it, if i didn't get involved with those activites, i would mostly be lazing around at home. So yes, its a good thing to get involved. Just have to measure the opportunity costs. xD So this whole holiday, I have been through 3 camps and 1 class chalet and currently preparing for my 4th camp in the second week of October. Hectic i would say, but its enjoyable and enriching.
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How's my "love" life?
Hmmm. Its complicated, yet not so complicated. In fact, sad to say, it's probably one-sided. SIAN. So this guy that I kinda like is quite charming, charismatic, knowledgeable, knows when to play and be serious, fun, cute, etc... But i would say for now I just want to get to know him better.. for now. Now and then he would disturb me a little, and so would i? But usually I'm considering when to approach him and when not, cause I don't want him to see me as desperate or know that I do like him. Why? Well that might just be awkward. And if it is awkward, then :( Yesyesyes, i should just act normal around him and be myself...
Thinking about what my senior and friend told me, be a friend worth keeping to those worth keeping, applying it in this context. Be a person worth keeping to the person worth keeping...in a sense.
WELL.."assessing" myself, i doubt i would even date myself. That's why I feel that he would never see me in the way that I see him. Maybe in the future I would confess when he graduates, so it won't be awkward whenever we see each other in the future. Well, it shows how much of a coward that I am. SIAN. but {ohwells}
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How am i?
Emotionally unstable, checked
Mentally unsound, checked <-- I'm joking, but yeah ;)
Physically like a blob, checked
Spiritually noob, yeah

Well [realised there's always "well" and "anyway" everywhere] I guess i still need to keep my temper in tone. I get pissed very easily, as usual, though i don't usually show it all the time. There are times, i usually just speak out what's on my mind just infront of the person that just pissed me off. Should keep that in better control. There are many things going on in my mind. Reflecting, planning, digressing, etcetc. bahahaha. Yes, I do reflect on what i did in the previous years, or even what i did during the day. It's like retracing your steps through memories :)

and yes i should sleep >< NIGHTS! CRUNCHIE!!!

Hello hello~~ :)

All right, since this its exam period. This is seriously going to be quick ;)

Yeah, like what i mention. Its exam period. YAY? well no =.= Seriously no. I would say I'm stressing out and i finally got into the mood of studying. Better than later than never was be so applicable now. I heard there would be a meteor shower now or later, so I'm going to stay up later for studying and the meteors. Hopefully i would be able to catch them here in the north-east. Of late, I have been going to school to study :) Good girl! hahha

A little ranting here. Of late, cause of a girl that i know, I have been raging quite ABIT. Yes I do rage and let loose to my classmates, who just laugh along. They do know how i felt about the incident and stuff. Awesome peeps, i swear. Also, since the start of school till now, I think I have gotten used to the fact that my friends say vulgarities. HAIZ bobiannnn.

Anyway, back to round 2 of studying! CHIONG AH!

Hello:)
About my poly life, i feel like escaping from it. I want to drop everything and just run away. haha this is stupid right? Coward.

I feel like im losing you all one by one :(